Sunday, December 28, 2008

the memories

the memories are leaving me the same way that you did... slowly and sometimes quietly, but then sometimes violently and i can barely stand when its done. i'm surprised but not fully. i'm broken almost completely. my heart only beats occasionally. and my eyes want to stay closed as much as possible. because even three more minutes of the good times can bring hope to my lifeless body. of course, the bad memories are paralyzing, and spirit breaking, and when these times visit, and stay longer than they should, its then that i have no hope that happiness will ever return. 12/21/08

3 comments:

sam said...

You are a very good writer Mom. Maybe try some "positive" type ones too though huh? Thanks for sending me the link to your blog! I have one too on blogspot but I never update it.

Clair said...

Do you ever update your blog anymore?

oblivious prattle said...

hey clair...i don't get online often so i don't update my blogspot often either...hopefully soon i will get a different laptop that actually functions and then the internet will soon follow and i will be able to do this kinda stuff all the time...thanks for checking up on me though...sorry i don't get to read your blog often